My Therapy

I am attempting to bring out other creative aspects of myself in order to calm and strengthen my inner body - particularly heart (coughs uncomfortably). It turns out I have a faulty heart valve - a genetic thing - that was irritated by infection...which explains the excessive tiredness and out-of-breathness I#ve been going through.

Interestingly - it's stress-related, as well. Doctor recommends to change jobs. (So easily, it is NOT!) In the meantime, he recommends calming activiites, and I'm not really to run or work out with heavy weights anymore until he has had a chance over the next few months to check out my valve.

So I'm working on my calming therapy - at present, a betta.

Step 1(yesterday)
Step 2 - today
I plan that my betta will be in the entry way of our new room. We're not moving anywhere, just upstairs...the parents offered to completely renovate the room above ours to our specifications as a bald bribe to keep us close when a baby comes (you'll be the second to know, no worries about that).

And since I'm not one to turn down something like that, I took 'em up on it. I'm determining the room colours, design, etc., all based off Feng Shui principles, and since our entryway should be in blue, Mr. Fishy will have pride of place.

So exciting. And vaguely comforting. I like the calming effects of shmusching the paints together to create something from nothing. I already have other ideas, but the next one will be a red facial painting of a buddha face for the living room.

ooohhh.

Animal Familiars

Slade at Shift your Spirits has a great entry up on Animal Familiars.

Devoting this particular entry to my boy Cat and his brother Blue-the-cat.

They are enjoying my time at home by cleaningand fightin'.
Actually, I'm really enjoying being at home with them too.

Oh - tagged!

This is my first official tag, from Debbi (thank you!) and so I'll tell you eight things you might not know about me.

1. I'm seriously feeling myself drawn to Buddhism.

2. I see fairies.

3. I hardly have any friends. I don't know why. I just don't. I wish I had them tho, and am extremely thankful for the ones I do have. Quality over quantity, I keep telling myself.

4. I had a raccoon named Ike, a possum named Red and an appaloosa named Buffy as my childhood companions.

5. As much as I whinge about America, deep down I wish I was living there.

6. I am a very creative person - I will obsess over a painting, completing it in my mind before beginning it on canvas...I make jewelry too.

7. My hubs was love at first site - for both of us - and I gave up everything I had and had built to come to flippin' Germany to be with him. Happily ever after, all right?

8. I secretly long to be a masseuse and Shiatsu therapist, and am taking steps for the Shiatsu bit now. Happy happy!

I dunno anybody to tag, 'cause I doubt that anybody even reads anymore,but oh well! If you read this, tag!

Wow. a month inbetween

I'm so sorry, guys.

It's been a bit, and so I'll catch you up on what's happening here in Genny-land.

A big mess, that's what.

Have you ever heard that proverb, "be careful what you wish for, you might get it?"

Well, my wished-for job has turned into the evil stepmother, and now my health is failing.

I'm clearly not cut out for 18 hour days (that's six hours travel and 12 hours work), as I've developed an infection in my heart that has me out this entire week. But even before this, since the Reiki attunement that I received, I've been having issues.

There has been a great need in me to help people. And clearly, writing copy that stimulates a Russian mafioso to buy a fancy car is not that type of needing I'm talking about. It's a deeper thing, a thing where I want to help people with their inner problems, and work on their bodies to get out all the negativity.

My first case in point: the hubs. He has gone from mocking my Reiki to asking for it on the weekends when he is home. I can't believe the change in him, either. He's much more attuned to his feelings and much more able to relax now. So good thing.

So I seem to be feeling a change in the air, which frankly is needed. I go tomorrow into the cardiologist to find out what the hecks wrong with my heart. She says its all stress and lowered immunity. I am inclined to agree.

So I guess the timing is really good for my Reiki II attunement happening this weekend. If the first one bettered my human relationships, made me question myself and learn all these new things, make me consider buddhism as a true alternative religion that I could be interested in (news, right?) then I'm frankly afraid of what the next one will do.

oi.