6.25.2007

Wow. a month inbetween

I'm so sorry, guys.

It's been a bit, and so I'll catch you up on what's happening here in Genny-land.

A big mess, that's what.

Have you ever heard that proverb, "be careful what you wish for, you might get it?"

Well, my wished-for job has turned into the evil stepmother, and now my health is failing.

I'm clearly not cut out for 18 hour days (that's six hours travel and 12 hours work), as I've developed an infection in my heart that has me out this entire week. But even before this, since the Reiki attunement that I received, I've been having issues.

There has been a great need in me to help people. And clearly, writing copy that stimulates a Russian mafioso to buy a fancy car is not that type of needing I'm talking about. It's a deeper thing, a thing where I want to help people with their inner problems, and work on their bodies to get out all the negativity.

My first case in point: the hubs. He has gone from mocking my Reiki to asking for it on the weekends when he is home. I can't believe the change in him, either. He's much more attuned to his feelings and much more able to relax now. So good thing.

So I seem to be feeling a change in the air, which frankly is needed. I go tomorrow into the cardiologist to find out what the hecks wrong with my heart. She says its all stress and lowered immunity. I am inclined to agree.

So I guess the timing is really good for my Reiki II attunement happening this weekend. If the first one bettered my human relationships, made me question myself and learn all these new things, make me consider buddhism as a true alternative religion that I could be interested in (news, right?) then I'm frankly afraid of what the next one will do.

oi.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh my gosh, please get better soon! A heart infection sounds really scary.

All these changes sound really positive, and I'm happy for you. Hope you can kiss the job goodbye very soon!

AutumnZ said...

I've been wondering what was going on with you. I'm glad you gave us a peek.

Stress really sucks a$$ doesn't it? I'm like you; if I bite off more than I can chew I DO NOT cope well.

Get to that cardiologist and get BETTER! And hug hubs and pet your kitties.